its hard when you realise that its gone

2007-07-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

listening to : I Miss uUu by Darren Hayes

okie, its been donkey years since i've updated.
hahahaha.

HELLO WORLD IM CURRENTLY VERY UPSET BECAUSE I'VE GOTTEN A PIMPLE. okie im not trying to sound bimbotic or very vain just that i haven have a pimple for quite some time x((

actualli sorrie, i dont realli have the mood to blog. will update again tml or maybe some other daes.

2007-07-02T04:21:00.000+08:00

listening to : Teardrops On My Guitar by Taylor Swift

My Life Journey . .

life is like a carousel. sometimes we go up and the other times we go down, but like everyone else, they go round and round. the cycles of life, where money and assets become our main priority. insidiously, we fall into such a life, where we worry about work, and money, and home. somehow, its inevitable i know, but once in a while i'd like to escape from the reality of life, holding on to you and jump off at the lowest point of the carousel. there are mani other rides we can take, for instance, the roller-coast or even ferris wheel. funny thing is, all these rides always revolves round and round. so, no, i wont jump off a cycle only to get me into another. i believe that one dae i will smile, saying that i found a new ride. a ride where there's only straight ahead. it will lead me to where i should belong x))

2007-06-22T04:00:00.000+08:00

listening to : Wo Hen Xiang Ai Ta by Twins

*yawn* its 4AM now yet im still online happily chatting. loll

woke up at 2plus and headed down to meet mao for RETAIL THERAPY. hahaha im so happie that i got my short le x)) lunch-ed+dinner-ed at hongkong cafe. we continue hunting for prezzie but in the end, i still cant find the ideal one x(( we were damn bloody tired so we decided to cab home. the journey home took me 30 over mins all thanks to the toopid traffic jam. argh, can you imagine how ex the cab fare. loll

tia and ivan came over to my hse at 7plus8. hahaha and that toopid ivan actualli mistaken my bro as my dad and call him uncle. hahahah wtf lah. i bet my bro wants to skin him alive. hahaha went into my room and we started cam-whoring and friendster-ing and so on lah. hahaha den later they went off at 1oplus11.

went out for my latenightsuppering with cher they all. i just love their company x)) prata+tehpeng jus brightened up my dae lah x)) after that went home to continue chatting till now *yawn*

2007-06-21T03:17:00.000+08:00

listening to : What Hurts The Most by Monica

i dont like it, school's reopening soon. i absolutely hate it that the holidaes are coming to an end. guess what, im left with 4bloody daes of fun x((

what a boring life i have x((
i just cant stop it with the DONUT CRAZE. alan gave me 10miss call yet i still sleep like a log and i miss a chance of eating donut x(( argh!! woke up around 4 and went to help my mummy to buy 4D. mygod one week of her 4D spending = 2/3 of my monthly allowance -_-" suddenli i feel so cheap. hahaha den went off to ps to meet clique. we went around to shop for prezzie but we just cant find any x(( headed down to grapevine for dinner x))

went home to msn again. hahaha was happily chatting with WU DA BAO on phone for 2bloody hrs about prezzie. hahaha we tht of so mani lameshit lah. hahaha i love what petname they gave me, "SI BEI WU LUI" hahaha i don mind if you call me this.

argh!! any idea or suggestion about bdae prezzie. i need TWO!! argh.

its bedtime!!

2007-06-20T04:27:00.000+08:00

listening to : Would You Be There

mygod-_-"
i need to get my normal sleeping hours back since school is starting in few daes time.
had been sleeping at around 3am or 4am every single dae, all thanks to latenightsuppering or even latenightchat. loll but im enjoying this kind of lifee x))

*yawn* im so tired and sleepy, effects of waking up at 2 bloody PM. all thanks to my toopid phone for ringing non-stop. the last caller actualli ask me up to help him solve MATH qsn. hahahaha i bet you are reading it. i think you better hire me to tuition your math before you go tuition others lah. hahahaha it boost my ego again wuahahaha.

went to watch Men In White before heading down to swensen for dinner x)) i just lovee sitting outside. hahaha we crapped throughout the dinner and all thanks to their toopid jokes and retarded acts, i almost laughed till i tio stroke. hahahah damn hilarious lah. after that home sweet home x))

went home to continue chatting with them and many others. hahaha what a long night and went out to have supper with DUMBFCUK( he doesnt wan me to relieve his name-_-") but i bet lots of people can actualli guess out who the hell is dumbfcuk(whose bdae falls on 20/6) loll no wonder i call you DUMBFCUK as you are realli dumb lah. stop your quek quek here and quek quek there.

hahaha. okie lah, its 4.23 and i realli need to hit the sack le.
so once again HAPPY BDAE MR DUMBFCUK!!
hope you like my prata+tehpeng treat and your bdae prezzie x))
hahaha please stop being so dumb and please stop your quek-ing before they skin you alive. lolll

x))

2007-06-19T03:34:00.000+08:00

listening to : Xiao Qing Ge

*yawn*
back from my latenightsuppering x))
i just cant stop my craving for prata and tehpeng x))
i just cant stop loving my friends for once x))
its their company that makes my dae x))

hahahhaha. heard that javin was out. first was xubin den wilson and now javin-_-" mygod what a spoilt of mood.

i was complaining to cher about having to queue for hours at DONUT FACTORY.
she asked me, wanna rob?!?
hahahahaha. so one fine dae, we are heading donw to stand at the end of the queue with our knives, DONUTS or LIFE?!? hahahahaha. wtf

i got so mani photoz to post it out but im lazy to do so.
6more daes of holidae.
date me out. date me out.
loll.

2007-06-18T02:58:00.000+08:00

listening to : This I Promise You by Ronan Keating

pulua ubin trip was damn bloody tiring. its the company that makes the trip enjoyable. i lovee my clique x)) lots of hilarious and retarded acts happened, lazy to elaborate. hahahha. BYE PULUA UBIN!! the next time i step in there will be to bomb you. loll

wow. how time flies. im onli left with one week of holidae-_-"
but im realli happie as i meet up with tonnes of people during this holidae x))
i bet im going to meet up more next week. im looking forward to it x))

and lots of bdae coming up.
realli have a hard time getting all the prezzie ready.
next time, please state or hint what you guys want lah.
be like wee. she gave me a hint.
she wants a dress. she like doraemon.
and that mean she wants a DORAEMON DRESS. loll i bet she going to kill me if she see this.

hahah i think its time to hit the sack or else i wont be able to wake up on time tml. will upload all the pics for this week soon x))

2007-06-17T02:31:00.000+08:00

listening to : If I Don't Tell You Now by Ronan Keating

my friend, cant you feel the gap between us. once its gone, its gone forever.

for as long as i know you, you have been giving me this sense of insecurity. i suddenli feel tired being the one initiating all the time and no matter how toopid this may should, i feel like saying "im giving up" all along i clinged on cause i know that you are one of those friends who can walk with me through my life. between us, there's this mutual thing going on. but im sure it shouldnt be something so logical and so easily decoded it into words. but somehow, the longer this friendship lasts, the most confusions set in. a decade long, it has been. its so hard to come by, and especially in this almost ten years, we are exposed to stark different environments. not mentioning how we have contrasting attitude, personalities, passions, dreams, everything. this probably is whie all are starting to drift apart. what we have been through and who we realli are, are slowing placing us into different worlds in this society we are living in. to be more precise, into two worlds that will not have any interactions. that growing gap is ...

i think i should stop here.
will update about this week events tml x))

2007-06-12T02:54:00.000+08:00

listening to : Do You Remember

time goes by so quckily these daes.
24hrs a dae is insufficient for me.

sometimes, i feel so damn tired of asking and asking yet i still unable to get a date to meetup or a dae that everyone can turn up. argh, give up the idea of asking.

2007-06-06T02:44:00.000+08:00

listening to : Wo Xiang Yao Shuo by Evan Yo

finally i spent quality time chatting with most of my nc`clique.
reminiscing about the old daes.
the past seems to be so beautiful that i will never want to let it go.
but that doesnt mean that i dont love my life now.
its just that things are getting more and more complicated and friends are drifting apart.

i feel so empty, its as if there's this void inside me thats been dry for so long. someone said that loneliness is a condition, no one can take it away. you just need to understand yourself better. maybe i have been too busy trying to occupy myself with all my wordly desires i have neglected the voices in my heart. there is this burning passion for something, but i dont know what. this longing and yearning for something, theres this emptiness and loneliness.

things are not the way it used to be anymore. give me back the memories, i promise i will live everything so much better this time round. whie do i confuse myself so much, my actions contradict my emotions. logic muust have ran away to hide, i cant find any rationality anywhere lately. what is it that i realli want, what is it that i realli need?!?

when was the last time i was sincerely happie. when was the last time i smiled from the bottom of my heart. i think its scary when one dae i dont even know myself anymore. will i find myself back and smile like i used to. my friend say the dreams that i have been having lately, it signifies that im lost and afraid. i dont want to admit it but i think that person is right. i have been living my life making myself think im happie, convincing that im happie, but what does my heart feel.

tonight, i lost control of my mind. i have no control over my life, i cant stand on my own anymore.

maybe its time for me to take a break away from here.
i don feel like coming back that soon but i noe i must.
all i need now is to be alone. lying down, looking at the skie/gazing up at the stars, listening to my music. maybe this is the kind of life im looking forward. a simple one will do.

2007-06-03T03:26:00.000+08:00

listening to : Wu Yue Tian by S.H.E

i had prettie much fun these few daes x))
heck, im getting really little sleep though.

hahaha. let start off with wed x))
went over to gen's hse to stayover. hahaha i think all i rmb was that some terrorist didnt let me sleep early. it was an unforgettable night. loll hilarious. traumatizing. and i had to sleep on the floor instead. hahahaha

slept all the way till thursdae noon and went off to town to get hy's prezzie before heading down to her bdae party at Keppel Club. the sea view was uuuuhhhbbreeathtaking man. hahaha. what more, a Star Virgo was actualli cruishing past while we were eating. hahaha after that went over to cher's hse. hung out at the playground. she got stuck on the spiderweb. screaming, " i wanna go down i wanna go down!" seriously, wtf lah. lolll after that went back to have our mahjong session. hm was being anal about us sleeping late. she didnt let us sleep in. wtf hahahaha.

no IS on fri that mean no school x)) was planning to head down to ecp but it started to rain so we went down to kbox. den dinner-ed and home sweet home. i miss my bed especially my chou chou x)) finally get to chat with them on msn x)) haven been chatting with them since don noe when =(( jus cant wait for holidae to arrive, cant wait for the fun we gonna have during holidae x))

erm. caught pirates todae with eugene x)) it was pretty good, Orlando bloom is thumbs up times 10. dinner-ed and went over to starbuck to have a short coffee session. went home to get my stuff done before heading out for my latenightsuppering x)) prata and teh peng x))

and now im finalli here, online x)) im super shagged. i have yet to start on my revision for WAD. im in deep shit now and i actualli didnt submit or even do my WAD self-reflection. i bet that old hag wont let me off. loll.

tml cher and i plan to rent horror movies and watch and scream and die yayyy.
hahaha who wan to join in our cheap thrill. loll

cant wait for holidae x)) i jus love my life to max with them around x))

2007-05-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

listening to : Everything by Michael Buble

my laptop is ultra laggy *10, mygod please dont tell me virus has ficking infected it again?!? i will commit mass murder. loll

im drained, all thanks to those piles of workloads=(( im staying back till 6plus daily and im so sick and tired of school for making me so no life=(( but im delighted to say that we managed to meet up and complete our given assignments on time and im feeling much more relax now=))

i just cant wait for ct to be over even though im clueless to it. cant wait for my 2weeks holidae=)) i swear im going to meet up with people that i haven been meeting up as i really miss them loads=)) and i going to enjoy my trip like never before=)) at least this is what im looking forward for the time being.

should i join in the backpack hiking trip with them?!? im still wondering?!?

2007-05-13T04:21:00.000+08:00

should i switch to livejournal?!?

so cute lah. im so in love with this pic =))

2007-05-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

listening to : Yes I Love uUu by S.H.E

went sch for project meeting. finally done with EBF=)) one assignment down=))
after that, i went over to cher's hse instead of towning.

watched "Sweet November" and was thinking how can anyone ever let the love of your life go. i didnt think the movie will end that way, but all the more i think about it, all the more i start realizing that you can let the love of your life go. if its for the better, jus let tat person go=))
and then this very prettie song kept ringing on my playlist.

" this is the way you left me, im not pretending. no hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending. this is the way that we love, like its forever. then live the rest of our life, but not together "

see, its possible to love someone without even physically being with them. even songs agree so.

went home to nap awhile. woke up from my nap with a burning forehead and no one at home=((
ARGH!! head felt like an earthquake had hit on a scale of 8.5. making thing worse, every single time i cough, it increases to a scale of 9.6. yes its that bad=(( my heading bursting soon=((

2007-04-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

listening to : Hui You Na Me Yi Tian

while waiting for my supper, i should blog=))

my emotions are no longer tainted with reason.

the light laughters that bubbles on my lip often mantles over the depth of sadness, and the serious look may be sober veil that covers a divine peace and joy. in the night, it will be a painful frivolity, sleeping in the cold night's arms.

we never understand how little we need in this world until we know the loss of it. the tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it. the greatness comes not when things go good for you. but the greatness comes when you are realli tested, when you take some knocks, some disappointments, when sadness comes. because only if you have been in the deepest valley, you will noe how magnificent it is to be on the highest mountain.

feeling are not supposed to be logical. there's a lot to be said for self delusionment when it comes to matters of the heart. there is a time for departure even where there is no certain place to go. some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.

i didnt noe whether i make the right decision to move on this way. better never have to meet you in my dream than to wake up and reach for the hands that are not there.

2007-04-22T05:05:00.000+08:00

listening to : Tui Hou by Zhou Jie Lun

i fall into temptation again.
slipping back to the pits of sorrows which i drowned.

so what if i stop it and regain consciousness?!?
can i go back to the life i use to have?
can i be who im in the past?
can i forget about the happening?
the answer is simply NO.
that whie i think i rather indulge in it.

once again, my mind is filled with thousand thoughts. im not sure whether i make the right move to tell things to you but i was kind of freak out that i did actialli blurb things out.

maybe good advices fall on deaf ears. i wont mind if one dae, you guys leave me and walk away.

its too late for me to turn back.
i wasnt just disappointed. i was absolutely shattered.

2007-04-20T01:57:00.000+08:00

listening to : Purest of Pain

a thousand thoughts filled my mind again . .

i feel like i have lost this battle of mine. my heart and soul are in termoil. im tossed into confusion and i fear the end of the war in my mind. i am a weaking, i can vouch or it. i fail to take over my own emotions. its hard to fake a smile when my heart can barely breathe.

a tear falls and i realise life will never be the same again. another tears falls and i know its to late to turn back time. who i am in the past is not who i am now. i can neither smile nor weep. what is left in me is only sorrow and sadness. let my past become the memories i have for tml; a memory that must be forgotten forever.

im just another tragedy.

2007-04-19T02:05:00.000+08:00

listening to : Flying Without Wings by Westlife

this is one of my fav song of westlife during the past=))
i think the lyric is damn meaningful=))
will you sing it to me one dae=))

my mind is filled with a thousand thoughts.
i was sitting there listening to my mp3 and i started to ponder about the happening throughout all this years. i was looking back at my past.

looking back . .
life seems to be so simple yet perfect.
at least at that period of time, i belong to happy-go-lucky kind of person.
nothing seems to bring me down and i always believe that we should live life to the fullest and enjoy every moment. im realli happie and smiling from the bottom of my heart. and i realli love my life especially all the happenings and events.

but now . .
everything seems to be so complicated.
i realli hate reality to the core.
im getting way too emo.
nightmare seems to haunt me every single night.
im waiting for something that will never happen.
everything jus sux to the core.
just because i smile, doesnt mean im happie!!
i just hate my life now!!
i finally understand that tears are words from the heart that can't be spoken.

that marks the end of my thoughts.

let talk about my dae.
i brought it out but i decided to walk away. loll i think i having my self-planning timetable now as i only go school whenever i feel like. didnt went for my morning class and i start to feel abit guilty. loll went over to sp to have lunch with those guys and went down to town. tia joined us and we slacked at starbuck while waiting for mao to join us. after that we went over to kovan to have dinner. we took damn lots pic throughout the journey from town to kovan especially in train. don feel like continue typing. i haven figure out how to do my WAD tutorial. hai

a long night to endure . .

2007-04-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

listening to : Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne

im feeling rather stoned now-_-".

SCHOOL is starting tml=.=
say goodbye to my
holidae . .
my late night life . .
my late night suppering . .
my late night msn or phone conversations . .

and welcome back
my morning call-_-"
my fcuking long journey to sch-_-"
my 2overkg laptop. .

the thought of carrying my laptop around realli killing my mood of getting back to school.
at least im looking forward to my next holidae which is on the 2nd week of june=))

hahaha. i swear im going to be super friendly toward my new classmates tml=)) please come over to make fren with me, im lonely. loll i bet i will be scaring them off!!

thinking of school realli make me feel like dying.
PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT is the onli word that flashed across my mind when i think of NP!! my life soon gonna be around np and hougang again.

im sure i gonna be late for school tml. loll

2007-04-15T04:19:00.000+08:00

listening to : When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne

i told myself . . .
after this, i will forget about all the happening and memories i had for uUu . .
i don want to hold on to it anymore . .
i wan to walk away from your life and i wan uUu to walk away from mine too . .
but . .
i realise that its impossible for me to do so . .

2007-04-12T01:41:00.000+08:00

listening to : Sa Rang Hae Yo Zhi Due Ni Shuo by Lin Jun Jie

i know i know i havent been blogging for really long right. hahaha yeah okie its real fast and the holidaes are ending already which means school is starting which means more work which means more stress and okie i wont continue cause the list goes on and is long!

my throat is slowly killing me and im still trying to preserve it well for mondae or i might just kill myself.

went home to put my luggage and went off to meet cher they all at giraffe. i miss them lots especially all their toopid retarded acts. loll went home and out again to meet them for late night suppering-_-" hahaha can you see how much they miss me for wanting to see me every moment. loll

and now im sittng in my room and the feeling of emptiness or loneliness gripped my heart. loll i feel so empty without noeing whie. maybe i don get use to be alone as i spent 5daes with wanpin and her family and now im here alone without her by my side=(( i feel so weird when i don see or hear her. no one dry my hair for me le=(( no more nagging or bugging her to bath, no more canto show for me to watch even though i don understand-_-", no more this no more that =(( seriously, i have to admit for once that i do miss her lah. loll i bet this going to boost her ego if she happen to see it. im just bored without her lah-_-" and the worst of all, i cant get myself into sleep now=((

the weather in spore is realli killing me for sure. even with the aircon on, i still feel so bloody hot lah!!

HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW!!
I DON GET USE TO IT NOW!!
ITS KILLING ME FOR SURE.

cant wait to get those pic from her=)) will update about my hk trip soon=))

tell me how am i going to slp tonight when i don get use to the weather and surrounding-_-"

2007-04-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

listening to : Kiss Goodbye by Hoh Wei Jian Derrick

mygod=)) derrick melted my heart with KISS GOODBYE=))
i jus cant stop loving him for once=)) maybe this is what i call first sight in love=))
i like him since the first time i saw him on magazine=)) from that moment, his voice touched or even melted my heart=)) that the onli reason whie am i so happie now=))

im sick-_-" for goodness sake!!

mygod. i nid more time-_-" i haven pack my luggage and i will be out tml from morning 7plus to night-_-" i think my dad killing me for sure=((

im looking forward for tml tennis=)) at least this is what im looking forward=))

I LOVE WEIJAN=))

2007-04-01T04:49:00.000+08:00

listening to : That What Friends Are For by Singapore Idol Season 1

=))) happie bdae to SHARON=)))

hahahaha. you always said that im evil that whie i specially choose this pic for you=)) happie 19th bdae!! finalli you joined neo and lc at the LAOZHABOR club!! hahaha

heyy girl!! happie 19th bdae once again=)) mygod-_-" so old liao still don wan faster marry EDWIN!! you wan wait for me and tete to marry then you marry izzit?!? hahaha don stress yourself too much on studies!! take a break, have a kit kat=)) no matter what, lhd will always be there for you one=)) oh i think we can plan for a holidae trip on aug-oct period cause most of them are saving up soon=)) i noe you cant wait to sleep with me and my chou chou right=)) loll okie lah!! i end here le=))

2007-03-31T03:39:00.000+08:00

listening to : Gu Dan Xin Shi

im so in love with this song now=))
it can express part of my thought and feeling now=))
so i decided to put it in my blog=))
hope you guys love it like the way i do=))

2007-03-31T02:16:00.000+08:00

listening to : Gu Dan Xin Shi

i like the lyric of this song=))

i realli don noe what to blog about since im quite down now=((
i think my moodswing getting worst now!!

i think this song is really affecting my mood!!
im a weakling, i can vouch for it!!
im supposed to be the one taking over my own emotions but it don seem to work!!

im trying to forget about the happening!!
im trying to pull myself out!!
im trying to walk out from the nightmare!!
im trying and trying!!
yet i can never conquer my FEAR!!

im unable to open myself up and this is my greatest weakness!!
when things accumulate, it will be disaster!!

F R I E N D!!
what does this mean?!?
i have tonnes yet i don seem to understand the meaning of having it!!

2007-03-29T04:28:00.000+08:00

listening to : Yan Lei De Wei Dao

was planning to have supper at prata shop but ended up we went over to cher's hse!! those gurls were busy playing with xbox while gen and me went to the nearby playground!! sat at the swing and talked about the past!!

it was an emo night for the both of us!! we chatted about the past!! all the fun we had, all the late night suppering, all the specially bdae celebrations, all the retarded stuffs we did!! after experience all this, how can i hold back my tears!!

gen gone = low entertainment rate = boredom = i rather bang myself onto the wall!!

my backbone hurts :'(
PAIN PAIN PAIN!!
i think i better get some rest or else the pain will be killing me off=((

2007-03-28T05:46:00.000+08:00

listening to : Truly Deeply Madly by Savage Garden

they bring forward the celebration to thur instead of fri as i have an appointment with lhd!!

after much advices, i think its better to stick to Canon In D!! hahaha hm playing "My Heart Will Go On" on saxophone. mygod that is so sweet lah!! i rmb i watched a concert by TJC if i not wrong, the guy played this song too and i think it melted our heart and our souls were flying up in the skie. loll that whie i always think that guys who play saxophone are realli SEXY!! loll

gen, you should be honour that you are the first one i given TRULY DEEPLY MADLY!! this is one of my all time fav and i onli wan to give it to the one i love but this time i decided to give it to you. no matter you are in aust or where, just rmb that we are always with you=))

it was realli sad that this may be the last bdae celebration we have together with you. i cant believe you are leaving us so soon. i should stop here before i get emo again=((

2007-03-28T03:26:00.000+08:00

2007-03-26T04:05:00.000+08:00

listening to : Hei Se You Mo

ANYONE IN EBF09 OR WAD03?!? PLS PM ME=))

CAN ANYONE BE NICE TO SEND ME CHALET PIC!! IF IM OFFLINE, PLS MSN ME!! I MABE ONLINE BUT APPEARING OFFLINE. THANKS=))

2007-03-25T04:06:00.000+08:00

listening to : Because Of uUu by Ne-Yo

-_-" my timetable changed again
mon - 9am to 6pm with 3hrs break -_-"
tue - 9am to 5pm with 2hrs break-_-"
wed - 9am to 3pm
thur - 1pm-5pm
fri - no school
i don like it especially when lessons end at 5pm or 6pm. its TRAFFIC JAM PERIOD and i nid more than a hr to reach home-_-"
but i was happie with the news that im in the same class with 2 of my clique=)) that mean im not alone again=))

will update about the chalet when i get hold of the photoz=))

didnt have the mood to online nowadae=((

mao wanted to go out todae so the 5 of us( ivan, alan, weilun, tia and me) accompanied her down to bishan. planning to catch a show but there isnt any slot for us so we went over to amk. the new shopping center wasnt tat great afterall. went to eat ZHI CHA!! the service was so bad that we cant stop complaining. after that we crapped all the way home. loll damn funni about all the topic that we chatted. mao said something and the surrounding ppls were laughing together with us. loll

its time for me to watch my video=))

2007-03-21T05:48:00.000+08:00

listening to : Hu Die by Tao Zhe

how i wish i can be like the butterfly, flying away from this cruel reality.

part of my timetable is out-_-"
mon = 2pm-4pm
tue = 9am-12am
wed = 9am-11am
thur = 12am-5pm
fri = no class=))
mygod if my timetable can remain like this, i will be the happiest person for once. loll but i haven add in 3 more modules :'(

was realli sad to noe that im one of the jobless around till now. hahaha most of my clique got a job yet im still rotting my lifee away. but nvm, i onli left with 3weeks plus holidae and i hardly got any free time for any other stuff. ivan introduced us Scrions Of Fate and i cant believe the 8 of us are so addicted to it tat we spent 10hrs pplus from 6pm till now to play that game. i cant believe i actualli refuse to be online for this game-_-"

mygod tia coming over to my hse to slp at 8am while alan they all coming at 1pm plus. how am i going to catch some sleep when there is still chalet on later. i cant wait for those games, those mahjong-ing session and not forget they want to go www-_-" i prefer escape most.

and i feel damn bad when i ps-ed damn lots ppls this holidae especailly my np`clique. heyy to np`clique - im onli free on 13th and 15th of april. book me fast!! we can decide the seoul garden treat around town since its the center of everyone's hse.

sometimes its realli hard to maintain or sustain a friendship from going on.

haha i think its better to continue playing the game till 8am or else i think i wont be able to wake up to open door for tia :'(

will update soon!!

2007-03-19T03:59:00.001+08:00

listening to : Tian Tian by Tao Zhe

im bored, from head to toe, inside to outside, upside down from the summit of my big head to my rotting toe skin, thats how bored im.

got back my sem2 result. it wasnt that bad afterall, at least i managed to improve by 0.2. but was quite disappointed that i didnt managed to get 3 as most of my clique got 3 and above and that mean im treating them for seoul garden=((

im not looking forward for the next sem as i may not get to be in the same class as my clique.
you can call me anti-social or what, i don give a damn as i realli don feel like knowing more friends when i have enough to last for my life.

let talk more about my lifee=))
we went to watch Stomp The Yard today and that was superb. japanese lunch was good=)) good food is always a great thing=)) toopid NS is taking him away again. hahaha but at least he got marksman that mean 200bucks extra=)) den i went off to meet cher they all for dinner and went over to her hse to watch teevee-_-" life is boring. loll

i feel no excitement in the upcoming chalet. pls don bash me up but i realli don feel like going for it even though i noe i must. chalet seems to be more and more boring=(( we seem to be doing the same old things over and over again. hai

but online seems to be even more entertaining now=))

└ g E n™ ┐ : does my boobs look big in the second photo?

haha which idiot will ask this kind of topoid qsn in the middle of the night. loll i laughed till my stomach cramp lah. realli damn funni lah.

haha its time to watch my video le=))
will update soon!!

2007-03-14T02:48:00.000+08:00

listening to : Put Your Records On by Corinne Bailey Rae

my throat hurst=((

finally the childcare assignments ended=))

went to watch 300 yst. the show was damn bloody but at the same time, i think its quite touching. shiming and i were trying to hide under the jacket. hahahaha

i deprived of sleep =((
nightmare still continue. im sure i can deal with this pain. cause this pain goes away when im busy and when im around with my friends=))

result will be out later at 9am. hopefully i pass lah and im taking up EVENT MANAGEMENT!! it sound cool right. loll

to lhd : sharon's bdae dinner will be on 30mar. fri at 7pm. we will be having dinner at wisma indo chine. please take note=))

its time to sleep. later still have to accompany mei nu to groom. loll

2007-03-11T04:54:00.000+08:00

listening to : Best Friend by Toybox

mygod-_-" i cant believe after 7bloody years, im listening to this song again.
hahahahaha i realli like this song alot lah.
this was one of the songs, my class danced during teacher's dae celebration.
i still can rmb the steps vividly. loll can you believe im one of the lead dancers in my class.
hahahah beebee, can actualli dance.

he's my best friend, best of the best friend, do you have a best friend too.
loll last time used to sing this song almost every single dae.
heyy all my friend, listen to this song. you guys are my best friend=))
i will sing for you guys one dae or even dance if you guys don mind. loll

2007-03-09T05:44:00.000+08:00

im so lost.
i realli don noe what to do.
there's no one i can confide in.

im realli tired yet no one can understand what im feeling deep down.
i can always try to be in the best mood or hide my feel during the dae but not the night.
im always weak during the night yet i cant let my weakness to be shown.
my head is bursting, realli bursting. i cant take it anymore.
i need a shoulder to cry on but i realli don noe who to turn to.
i realli don wish to drag any of my fren in as they are meant to share my happiest moments but not what im going through now.

i realli never feel this pain before in my life. its the biggest nightmare ever. i realli don now how to stand up from it. can someone bring me away from all this. can i jus end it. im realli feeling terrible deep down.

2007-03-09T04:04:00.000+08:00

the facts is
not that i don wan to sleep, is just that I CANT!
not that i wan to go out in the middle of the night, is just that I GOT NO CHOICE!
not that i wan to get myself intoxicated, is just that I CANT FIND ANY WAY TO FORGET ABT IT!!
not that i wan to end my life, is just that I CANT FIND ANY GOOD REASON TO CONTINUE LIVING ON.
not that i don wan to take care of my health, is jus that its BEYOND MY CONTROL!!

2007-03-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

listening to : Total Eclipse Of The Heart

im all out of faith, this is how i feel.

life had been so hectic for me. i need a break, a kit kat.

todae is nc anniversary and i decided to sleep than going down=(( realli sorrie to those who i ps lah.

the present become the past and the past become the memories that i had for you=((

i realli don noe what to pen down lah!!

its time to go out again=((

2007-03-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

listening to : Ni Yao De Bu Shi Wo by Lin Jun Jie

im still on my happie mood without knowing whie=))

tml will be lhd 4th yr anniversary and im so excited toward the dinner=))

todae went down to cher's hse for some mini celebration for their A. they all did damn well for it especially him=)) they( gen, hm, bel and cher) started their ang mo style mahjong again-_-" and forced me to start fire alone-_-"

ended up, her maid helped me cause i spent 30mins plus yet the fire is still not ready. loll den they joined in the mini bbq. loll grilled and joked around. damn funni lah, lazy to elaborate about it.

was realli upset to noe that bel might be going to aust to study as her parents think that it will be better for her=(( she got triple As lor and i realli don see a need to go oversea when she comfirm can get into the course she wan in local U. hai, but as a buddy of you=)) i will respect and support every decision of your. no matter where you are, rmb that we are always here for you and love you the way you are=))

we did some toopid survey and my true love is a CANCER-_-" loll mygod who is CANCER, please step forward to me. loll and i have 72% chance of being a multimillionair lah. wuahahaha and i always said thay beebee is rare and you guys don believe till now i got evidence from the survey saying im RARE. wuahaha.

okie stop my crap and i need to get something settle now=((

2007-03-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer:

Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.
Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!

Why a Cancer will love you:

You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.
A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 72%

You have a good chance of being a multimillionaire. Better than most people.
You simply have a natural knack for money and the personality for success.

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ESFP)

Your personality type is playful, charming, open minded, and energetic.

Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 5% of all men
You are Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

2007-03-04T03:50:00.000+08:00

listening to : Love uUu I Do by Jennifer Hudson

=)) im happie
happie till the extend i can fly up into the skie=))

im so in love with dreamgirls soundtracks=))

i jus cant stop listening to it=))

it make me emo=))

i want to sing for my LOVE=))

one dae i going to write a song for my LOVE=))
my onli reason of living=))

loll its time to sleep =))

2007-03-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

listening to : Ni Bu Zai

when it always come to blogging, i dunno how to start.
deprived of sleep. as usual.

it wont be making sense if i not and being like one. i aint a sticky person and i cant stand stickyness. neither do i like sweet talking. just let things go as it is. im just stationary. things just went too fast. its irritating when frens around get included too. im afraid of disturbing them. im aware of things thats going on even without mentioning. having late night calls with anyone is a dread now. i do get sick and tired of routines. it deprives me of sleep. and the next dae i become a walking zombie. and the cycle continues. its not tat im cheating or anything. i just want back more of my normal life. back to frens and clique and a little fun. im not avoiding or running away from everything. its just back to reality and setting priorities right. i have been busy with things around as it is. its just hectic.

im just taking step by step at a time and i dun even expect much from myself. whie move on so fast. there's still so much time. love is also not measured by monetary terms. im not a materialistic person or what. its not spending more and i love you more. things would still be the same. its the thought that counts. sometimes trying far too hard might not work too. couse it comes naturally, you noe.

i hope you realli understand that i don like sticky-ness and i dun like revolving around 1 person everydae. i like the freedom around and not the routine. thinking, i dun noe if this love yet. but i can say its like. love is too serious word for me to use on anyone now.

i dunno whie im blogging this todae but i just had to. sorry if i spoilt the mood but i wanted to get it off asap.

=)) my childcare job starts later with ivan and weilun. mygod-_-" ivan told me tat i have to play games with those kids-_-" and i realli cant wait for tml when all my poly fren offically start holidae and my date with perrine. oh pls. tml faster come

2007-02-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

Who doesn't have dreams?
Who has never been moved?
Whether there's a storm or a rainbow, you teach me to be at ease
The time is ticking by the minute
I know you understand joy and agony
Your smiles have lightened the burdens of the tears
I believe things will be different in the next second
Every dream i weave, the wind will carry it afar
I'll move on despite the rugged path ahead
Your best wishes will always be in my heartI cherish every dream
There'll be a star shining on me
How difficult a problem is,
I will face up to it
I believe things will be different in the next second
Every dream I weave, the wind will carry it afar
I'll move on despite the rugged path ahead
Your best wishes will always be in my heart

2007-02-26T04:54:00.000+08:00

listening to : Glory Of Love by North

went for dinner with alan, ivan and mao at swensen. maomao got herself a SHIH TSU(my fav type of dog) im so jealous about it lah. loll she named it as COOKIE but i call it MARY instead while the guys call it FEI MEI in canto. loll her dog realli damn fat lah. cant wait for the dae to play with it=))

LYNN NG!! I ACCIDENTLY DELETED UR ADD FROM MY MSN AND I GOT 4 SAME LYNN IN MY CONTACT LIST SO I DON NOE WHICH ONE TO TEXT TO!! TAG ME UR ADD CAN? AND I DON THINK IM JOINING YOU GUYS FOR THE GENTING TRIP. REALLI SORRIE ABOUT IT AND HELP ME APOLOGISE TO THE RESTS=))

realli sorrie to those who i ps during this holidae=(( my schedule quite tight due to the overwhelming of booking( chalets, gatherings, outings and so on lah) but to those who i haven been meeting up, free feel to tag me, i will try to fork out times for some short coffee session=))

- a gentle reminder by our class rap, rp -
class 1t07=)) there will be a gathering on 7/3 at MARINA!! ATTENDANCE IS COMPLUSORY!! any enquire, please approach the class rap but not me -_-"

2007-02-24T03:51:00.000+08:00

listening to : What Hurts The Most by Rascall Flatts

=)) since im waiting for the dinner to be serve, i should blog about my cny's happening since some of my fans want to noe. loll

- cny dae 1 -
` went ahma's hse!!
` dragged by my aunty to her mother-in-law hse
` gambled=(( didnt noe white is the lucky color this year for dragon
` my aunty didnt allows me to go home so ps my supper's mates and stayover to play mahjong
` i laughed till my lung wan to burst all thanks to wanpin, her mummy and her aunty. wtf lah. where got ppls midnight cracked so mani jokes one. loll
` conclusion for the night- never never ever ever play in-between when wanpin is the one giving the cards out. si bei suay one lah. don noe tio how mani times to pay double-_-"
` WANPIN IF YOU EVER SEE THIS, PLS WASH UR HAND BEFORE GIVING THE CARDS LAH!! YOU DAMN SUAY ONE LAH!!

- cny dae 2 -
` reached home at 7am and sleep till my fcuking 3rd uncle's family came at 10am.
` on the fcuking teevee till 30 over volume-_-"
` more and more relatives came=))
` sweetheart came and went to play with her. she damn bloody cute lah.
` went off to gamble and man tai like siao=)) i think maomao and toot onli won one round. loll
` went for dinner before going down to my aunty' hse since my cousin there-_-"
` so damn bloody tired and shared cab with my cousin
` home sweet home

- cny dqe 3 -
` planned to go hum's hse but i oversleep and wake up at 4pm-_-"
` they got 20bucks angpows from her mummy and they keep on hl to me-_-"
` her mummy damn nice lah, till now still rmb me. when im free, i should pay her a visit. loll
` went down to meet them at madam low's hse
` chatted, bonded, crapped and took lots of photo.
` she took our sec 1 and 3 pic out and that shawn went to take down one by one and i think he wanted to threaten us lah-_-"
` went off around 8plus den went for dinner and so on

- cny dae 4 -
` went sentosa with ivan and weilun
` went off to meet lhd to celebrate lc bdae
` went euro funfair
` i wan win bearbear but i sux in it
` took one ride and everyone numbed. loll
` happy bdae lc and xi =))

- cny dae 5 -
` i forget what i did. loll
` happy bdae maomao!!

- cny dae 6 -
` lol i also forget what i did=((
` happy bdae perrine=))

lol i realli cant rmb what i did=(( i think i getting stm.

2007-02-21T04:51:00.000+08:00

listening to : Ju Hua Tai by Jay Chou

finalli, i ONLINE =))
will upload v.dae pic soon=))
will update about my cny's happening soon=))

and now im going to upload about my little cutie SWEETHEART!!
she is so bloody cute lah=))
can someone pls convey my message to her?!?
she is the love of my life and i jus cant stop loving her lah=))

- My SweetHeart=)) -
- Angel=)) -

- Devil=)) so fcuking cute lah!! my fav pic of all -

she is my xiao bao bei=))
she is so cute lah=(( too bad my phone low batt, cannot bluetooth or else i can upload more of her pic during cny and the video of her singing and dancing and even voice recording of her singing=)) and i bet everyone going to love her like the way i do=))

image 10over families( 50 over ppls) at my hse queueing up to take pic or video with her and everyone is trying so hard to capture her every move=))

haha she went around calling ppls the opp like for example, she nid to call me YIYI but she called me SHUSHU instead and she did it to almost everyone. we asked her whie and she replied YI WEI WO SHI FANG DUI DANG. loll we all bursted into laughter straight away lah.

there is so much for me to talk about her and i was realli lazy to type it out so i end off here. need to catch some slp le.

2007-02-14T02:06:00.000+08:00

listening to : Everydae I Love uUu by Boyzone

=)) happy val dae to all.

uUu are my sunshine, my only sunshine
uUu make me happy when skies are grey,
uUu never know dear, how much i love uUu
please don't take my sunshine away.

=)) one more paper to go

will update again when im free=))

2007-02-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

listening to : Gei Zhi Ji De Qing Ge by Liang Yong Qi

mygod-_-" my body breaking apart. loll

last night went supper at Prata shop=))
had a good time talking, Gen left, Hm and Bel went mad. dey started doing pole dancing, seducing all the ah peks. loll and they jus continued their retarded acts lah. loll so damn hilarious lah, cher and me just cant stop laughing at it. mygod=)) i jus love hanging around with them. how i wishmy lifee will be rotting with them=))

todae=(( went towning with mao, wee, toot and ming. were crapping all the way and mao just cant stop complaining about someone. loll finally got time to get myself a new tank from num. walked around town from one end to another and back to the start again=(( so tiring lah. den went off to meet the guys at mac for dinner=((

mygod-_-" i had been going out every single daes and i haven even start mugging for my papers. im in deep shit now=(( and i going out again in 30mins time=((

the worst of all, i think this month will be on bread feast again-_-" spent all my pocket money on prezzie-_-" and its onli 11th dae of the month. how am i going to survive=((

time to bath.

2007-02-09T09:28:00.000+08:00

listening to : Queen's Park Melody by Jacob De Hann

mygod-_-" finally after 10hrs plus of rushing, i finished the prezzie=)) im so bloody tired now*yawn* my eye lips seem to be so heavy tat i feel like closing it=(( but have to get my ass out in 1hrs time so better blog to keep myself awake.

mygod-_-" feb seems to be a busy month. so mani ppls de bdae coming up and cny and so on lah!!

i realli got no strength to type on le.
HAPPY BDAE TO OUR MS BITCHY, HUM SHI YING!!
i always want to tell her sth but i didnt tell the chance and that is i MISS KICKING HER and stop being so aunty lah. loll

due to special request from maomao,
happy bdae to MAO's MUMMY!! loll

2007-02-06T05:50:00.000+08:00

mugging getting so bored lah=((

2007-02-06T04:16:00.000+08:00

listening to : Hou Hui De Jie Kou

i share a love/hate relationship with god!
sometime, i don noe should i hate him cause he put me into all this dramatic act but at the same time, i don noe should i love him for giving me all the precious one like my fren and him.

his letter realli brighten up my daes!!
what he pen down realli mean so much lah, but at the same time i feel so bad about it. i shouldnt always put my fren at the priority lah=((

i think this part is realli meaningful
Sometimes i think i am out of my league
And then sometimes i think i can dream
Sometimes i wish i could be the one fish
That you choose out of all in the sea
When youre down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon i will be there
To brighten up even your darkest nights

=)) so happie
loll oh btw lifee getting realli bored when all ur fren are still busy with their assignments. i cant believe whie the hell np having holidae so much earlier than tp and nyp. they onli start on march-_-"

time up! i need to start mugging-_-"

2007-02-01T14:26:00.000+08:00

speechless

2007-01-31T04:24:00.000+08:00

listening to : Jiao Ou

=((
mygod-_-"
i was having serious headache plus coughing since morning.
started puking at night-_-"
and i ended it by fainting in my kitchen-_-"
loll how dramatic can it be
went to 24hrs clinic=((
the doctor examined and said that i was running a fever-_-"
i didnt realised it and happily went for my vball training that made my condition worst.
in the end, i got an injection, it made me cried for dunno how long lah. so bloody painful lah=((
-_-" see this is the consequence we have to pay when we don take good care of ourself=((

whie am i so bloody weak lah=((
i bet my daddy going to curfew me=((
say byebye to beebee!!
and i gonna say byebye to my outing, gathering or even late night suppering=((

2007-01-30T06:30:00.000+08:00

listening to : When There Was Me and uUu by Vanessa Annes Hudgens

=)) my new new love!! i jus love every part of the song especially the lyric=)) it seems that i got tonnes of songs that i wan to sing, only for uUu=)) mygod i wan to join SINGAPORE IDOL SEASON 3=)) i wan sing for my LOVE!! loll

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blindIt's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

2007-01-29T02:58:00.000+08:00

listening to : Have uUu Ever by Brandy

im glad i said my piece. im happy with things like that instead. i still emphasise on friends priority.

let talk about my happy lifee=))
sat
- he booked out and we met up for lunch=) den decided to town but i was way too tired so we
changed plan for ice cream making. its fun!! cream, milk, sugar, vanilla essence=) and the best is that i get to supervise. hahaha went off to meet the rests at cold storage to get the food for steamboat. den we went off to grapevine=)) somehow we were chatting about emo stuffs and all the sweet things. life with them is never boring=))

sun
went to watch The Gritiron Gang with cher. the movie wasnt too bad. typical storyline about team spirit and unity. it was a little too draggy for my liking though. watching this movie made me miss the good ol' band daes. i miss nc`percussionist lah=((. after movie went to starbuck for some drinks=)) talked and talked and talked till 7plus then this indian family just sat at our table, next to us without even asking us if the seats were taken-_-" they are being such an arse lah!! i cant stand it and we went off to ann place for steamboat. after dinner, we played truth, dare, double dare and promise. fucking insane lah. hahahahahaha.
highlight of the dae
i am fucking happy=))
- firstly because i cheered quite afew ppls up todae and it makes me happy when my friends are happy!
- secondly because ann told me "you're realli special know?if everyone were like you right, the world will be a better place" it rocks when you know people do appreciate you=))
- thirdly because cher was telling me retarded jokes online=))
- lastly because gen rushed home to play uno with me=)) i gonna add more love for you. loll

2007-01-28T03:24:00.000+08:00

i think, therefore i love.
i love, therefore i hate.
i hate, therefore i curse.
i curse, therefore i sin.
i sin, therefore i fear.

2007-01-27T04:34:00.000+08:00

listening to : That's When I Love uUu by Aslyn

=))
after sch went to play floorball=))
FUN FUN FUN I TELL YOU!!
i whacked this girl's leg at least twice and it was HARD i swear.
they think im damn violent. and realli, all of us were beng pretty violent, so you cant blame me.
another girl rammed right into my shoulder. good for her man, wanna snatch my ball lah!! my shoulder hit her chest and i doubt that she's breathing alright now. loll
and don't you get frustrated when people intercept your ball. yeah i did, and i shouted CHEEBYEEEE-_-"hahahaha

i am feeling pretty lethargic but i wan to get my slipper so went off to town to meet mao. finally got my slipper from num. shopped around and went for dinner before heading home!!

he gonna book out tml=)) but onli for two daes=((.

hopefully i can slp all the way to late afternoon before heading out=))

and something nice to share!! WU ZUN WILL BE AT TAMPINES MALL AT 7PM ON MONDAE!! WHO WAN TO GO DOWN TOGETEHR WITH ME=))

2007-01-25T05:39:00.000+08:00

listening to : That's When I Love uUu by Aslyn

Cause here's my promise made tonight
uUu can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love uUu
When nothing uUu do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love uUu
When I love uUu
No matter what

i like the part when it say "the more i learn the more i love, the more my heart cant get enough." i jus cant stop loving this song especially the lyric. how i wish you can listen to it. heyy ppls spare some time for this song and i promise you will love it like the way i do=))

jus come back from my suppering. as usual prata shop but this time im drinking coke. miracle right=)) den we went over to sit at the flyover and they were busy chatting while i used this time to do some serious thought about the happening of 07=))

omg-_-" i shouldnt have brought all the unhappiness i had in 06 to 07. cmon BEE!! stop all the depression thing, jus let go and move on=)) 07 will be a better year=))

something that make my dae will be chatting with perrine for hours=))
she reminds me of the old daes again
those daes=))
` of badminton madness=))
` those games we played during lesson=)) like 7-up, the frog game and so on
` those WOO things going on=))
` gathering, chalet, outing or even celebration=))
` after sch chicken rice session( i never forget the daes when we will be in cp everydae to eat chicken rice=)) )
` crapping, pranking, sleeping, and mani others
` not forgetting to say about those band daes with eunice, hum, alan and other bandmates. that was memorable when we had so mani jokes, crap and fun going on. most important we all have a common interest. i jus love smacking the drum=))

and todae perrine became my idol and i be her fen si and this is what she give me in return

i never forget the fun we had=)) and i will always rmb that you used to be mine every fri=)) its damn childish but i not going to grow up for this part. loll

ohh. i got exams on the 13th and 15th and that mean my val dae is gone case le lah!! will army allows them to go home on that dae=(( i think i jus have to take my books in to celebrate. loll and debar session over and that mean i can stop attending classes le=)) holidae holidae here i come=))

i think its time for me to shup my eyes and i still got demo presentation later. OOP also submitting later and that mean i onli left with the demo part and i will say BYEBYE to all my assignments. how nice can life be to me now=)) thanks god for everything=))

and for those who cant tag, i apologise for it cause there is some error with cbox. will try to update it when im free=))

2007-01-23T05:49:00.000+08:00

listening to : Bu Yuan by Elva

jus come back from my suppering so let blog as im quite emo now!! its better to pen it down before i die from internal bleeding due to over depression. loll

we went parat shop for prata with beers-_-" and den we proceeded to the durian shop for durian-_-" i hate durian lah!! den we got ourself even more alcohols drinks and ended up sitting at the flyover there to chit-chat. we were chatting about the person we like. and i realised that i got tonnes to say about uUu and i actualli smiled whenever i mentioned about the events or happening we had. after that jus walked cher home and i headed home. flipped through my diary and i read through those happening events we had, it realli brought back alot of happy plus memorable moments i had for uUu.

i realli don noe what to pen down as there is tonnes i wan to say to you but then i realised that SINCE I CANT TAKE THE PERSON I WAITED FOR, I SHOULD TAKE THE PERSON WHO WAITED FOR ME. maybe some disagree with what i think but if you gone through those pain, i think you will think the same as me.

if i was given a chance again, i will give you this song " BU YUAN ". that the song, i will sing for uUu for now and ever=)) onli for uUu. hope you understand the meaning of it. even though i don have the gut to tell you about the happening, im glad that im your friend or maybe good friends or even closer.

and after all this experience, i understand something.
when you realli feel how painful pain can be, its because you like the person too much and the person have left you with too mani happy or memorable moments that whie you will feel the pain.

oh come on, after this entry, im moving on. lalalalala im happy=)

haha stop my crapping. i should get my ass into slp=(( there still vball on.

2007-01-22T14:39:00.000+08:00

listening to : Jin Tian Ni Yao Jia Gei Wo by David Tao and Jolin Tsai

lifee seems to be so happening when you are around =))

went for breadfast with cher at some kopitiam-_-" haha den she dragged me down to Chinese Gardens to visit the Live Tortoise and Turtle Museum!

- welcome to Chinese Garden!! -

- One of the many shelves filled with turtle/tortoise merchandise! there's over 100,000 of these artifacts and stuff, and thats whie its recorded in the Guinness World Records!-

- ITS THE ATTACK OF THE TERRAPINS! lol. they are climbing up the stairs and up the bridge and i got so freaked out-_-"-

loll. lazy to upload all the pic and we went off to citylink. she went to sign up for k800i. we got the same phone now=)) went over to raffles for lunch and people were queuing for DONUTS. the queue was DAMN LONG. THESE PEOPLE ARE CRAZY! its just DONUTS. and guess who was in the queue? VICK!! HAHAHAHA. WTF MAN VICK WTF. why are you QUEUEING UP FOR DONUTS?!? loll.

den when to get the prezzie and cake for bel and went off to Grapevine to meet the rest. the funniest thing happened, bel ran out of Grapevine the moment we started to sing her a birthday song. W T F right, who the hell will run out? hahaha. FIRST TIME EVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER EXPERIENCED SUCH A THING probably the last too. She was too embarrassed, but the situation got worse. the lady next table went to get her in instead. bel? your friends blah blah blah. loll see lah, run lah, the whole restaurant was staring but the lady was really friendly. managed to sing her bdae song TWICE. its veri torturing for her. you should have seen her facial expression. hahahah den we insisted of her going to thank the lady. she was way too shy to do it. again, we sang "whie are we waiting whie are we waiting" loll.

den we cabbed down to bel's hse. we watched Sweet November. the ending was really sad and it made cher cry like crazy and my tee was flooded with her tears. den we took some bottles of red wine and junk food and went off to the poolside. enjoying our lifee down dere and i think i got myself abit drunk and i really cant rmb what happened after that.

when i opened my eye again, i was already on cher's bed with her sleeping soundly beside me-_-" she raped me=(( loll stop my crap lah!!

oh. i need to get my ass out of my hse again. byebye!!update my dae again soon!!

2007-01-21T04:21:00.000+08:00

listening to : Qi Shi Hen Ai Ni by Zhang Shao Han

=)) life is great when cher is around.

she is finally back from her trip. she claimed todae is 321 daes we know each other so we must celebrate it. loll how bored or lame can we get. but bare with us lah, lifee is realli getting damn boring so we must find stuffs to entertain ourself before we get bored to death.

-highlight of the dae -
so we booked the Sky Dining. haha how romantic can we be=)) so we went to mount faber to board the cable car. the food was quite nice lah and the atmosphere was there. we stopped in the middle of the skie to enjoy our dinner. mygod=)) she being so sweet by getting me the SAMSUNG K5. i jus cant stop loving her for once lah. i think its realli a nice experience to be on a sky dining with someone like her. but it costs 200+ for it =((

haha she was planning for the celebration of our 345daes!! loll

honestly speaking, i don realli like one on one date with people as people around us are changing as time go by, we got no common topic to chat about and the atmosphere will be damn weird, that whie i always love hanging out with a beeg bunch of clique. but i think among all my friends, i jus love haning around with cher one on on. =))

ohh later on still got bel bdae celebrtion!! i nid sleep so as to have more strength for the fun!!

2007-01-19T02:56:00.000+08:00

listening to : Dou Shi Ni

Never Again!!

- random thoughts for the night -

just a week ago, i thought everything was going well for me. turns out, im wrong. im about to face the same old problem that i encounted during `06. this familiar scent of helplessness is overwhelming. i never thought that i have to go through this again. events in my lifee seem to be on a repeat mode.

this is way to similiar. please dont let what happened in `06 to happen now. i dont think i can take it. its scary to see the potential of it all. and no, i dont want any unnecessary drama to happen in `07. the drama experienced last year is enough to last me for a decade.

its hard to tell what is realli going on. i never knew how to read between the lines. im bad at taking hints. if this is heading where i think its heading then, its going to be one hell of a rollercoaster ride. i rather you stay completely out of my life.

WO BU YAO NI MEN DE AI!! WO BU XI HUAN NI MEN!! BU YAO LAI FAN WO KE YI BU KE YI!!

2007-01-16T05:44:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Crash by Gwen Stefani

im damn fed up with those people who don't want to put in effort in their works. not only me, but people around me are facing the same problems.

sometimes, i wish people would just take me seriously. it does get onto my nerve nowadaes. i know its hard to. look at me, im like half mad most of the time. who would even think of me ever being serious? but come on lah, everyone has a serious side. URGH!! it gets super frustrating when people dont take you seriously. i feel the sadness again. i feel, somehow a little empty. i was so filled up. but now they drained me again. LIFE'S SICKENING.

i thought i was like facing the worst situation but i aint. jasmine's team was even worst. her mate jus don give a damn on the assignment and she really like rushing it out alone or maybe with the help of wang ren.

haha we started the LAO NIANG ZHEN DE YAO FA HUO LE!! haha that was hilarious if you was there. we laughed till i think the whole library is flooded with our laughter.

mygod-_-" kailing injured her hand wrist as the doctor said that its broken and she need to put cast on it and she need to rest for like 6weeks. mygod-_-" ke lian de ni. we should start using the LAO NIANG ZHEN DE YAO FA HUO LE to curse and swear. hahaha

2007-01-10T02:11:00.000+08:00

listening to : Wo Hen Xiang Ai Ta by Twins

many things happened, many events happening after one another, i guess im just too lazy to write all about it. These few daes, im really down. i dont know whether its because im weak or because of the stress im undergoing now.

i realise something strange it really happening to me. Everydae when i come home after a whole dae of fun and laughter, i sit down and i start to feel lousy. its so contradicting because i did have fun, i was really enjoying myself, i wasn't pretending to be happy. but once i settle down, my heart seems to start crying.

perhaps the reality of life keeps hitting me in the head. im so sick of facing pretentious and shallow people. i caught a glimpse of what the outside world is like, im not sure if that's where i wanna work, be all my life. school is onli 10% of what is it out there. i know its to early to think about this but its really bothering me as people have been telling me about their regrets.

im afraid. im not strong. everyone keeps telling me to be strong, to be positive, but hey can being positive realli hide the fact that LIFE IS SAD?

Because Life is. we can try all ways to smile and think that life is great, tell ourselves, "it's just how you see it lah"
BUT, that cannot hide the ugliness of reality can it?

AH, what the point of me saying all these because i know i need to get back to life after typing this entry.

im just sad that im not enjoying life at the moment. Life's good when you are young.

oh wells, i miss my old daes.